aparadiseonfire

So today has been the day from hell. I told Kayle I wanted a break this morning, for various reasons. Then I come home to my dog having seizures. He has had seizures before but never as much as today. So my brother and I moved him to the grass and he wasn't really breathing right but we figured he was just really tired and he would come out of it. But he didn't, and now he's gone. There will never again be another Rocky. He was definetly one of a kind and forever will be missed. We love you Rockster.

So I finished my first year of college, and my first semester of college at a University. I've learned a lot, both inside and outside the classroom. I've learned that reason why our economy is where its at is because the aggregate demand is below the short run aggregate supply. I've also learned that when a professor assigns you an assignment a week or two before its due, you shouldn't on it the night before its due. I've learned all about The Odyssey and Ancient Greek society and about different religions. However I also have learned that I have every right to question everything. Everything from why the government implicates some of its laws, to questioning the beliefs of one. I've also learned that going to bed at 2 and having to get up for class that starts at 8 isn't a good idea. For those of you who read this and aren't in college yet or are going to college this fall for the first time, good luck, its a lot of fun. Pay attention in class, its up to you to make each class interesting. For those who are in college or have already graduated, call me, I miss you all. Anyways, college is mega fun, i realized i love learning

I feel like my world is crumbling down before me

I LOVE KAYLE!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zx2ytr2Oyv4

i fuckin love these guys

So up here at UMF, we have our own improv troupe called lawn chair pirates. Well i auditioned for it today and got called back! the sad thing is my room mate, tried out last semester and this semester and didnt get called back...i hope i make it!

So tomorrow i leave for farmington. Im really going to miss Dover, I love it here but there is no college here for me and Kayle's not here. She's been really pissing me off latley. Everything has to be her way, and shes just pissin me off. Like today, so she called at 345, i was packing the trunk because i leave for tomorrow so she told me to call her back later. At 510, she calls me back all pissed off because i hadn't called her yet. I tried to explain that i was spending time with my family before i left and lost track of time, then she got into her sarcastic bitch mood where she said she would call me back if she didnt lose track of time. And just the other day she told me that i should spend some time with my family, rather than going out tonight but then when i dont call her back because im doing what she sugessted, she gets pissed. She's been telling me latley, that i need to stop arguing about everything, but then she does. I always try to prover her wrong, because she tells me that she is always right. It really pisses me off. Lately I havn't felt like I'm a good boyfriend anymore, but then she says that I am, Its bullshit. Luckily I have Smey who I talk to then talks to kayle and she apologizes. But there are so many apologies before i snap, and right now, im a ticking time bomb.

this is bullshit

so yea, i basically never write in here...so update. I got into UMF, got my classes scheduled, got a roommate, and all that jazz. I cant wait for next week because all my friends are coming home from college but work is going to be hell. I have to go back to the docs today and get blood work. hmmm I still need to pack most of my room up. Wow my life is kinda boring right now, but i like it like that, zero drama here.

am i allowed to have a weekend to myself?

so today the guy in charge of umf addmissions called me and told me he signed my letter of acceptance today! Also I got back my final project in Critical Thinking which is 30% of my grade and I got an A+ and he said REALLY good things about it. I was so excited, I havn't got an A+ on a project in ummm ever I think. Seriously, I'm doing better in college than I did in high school. I'm busier than I've ever been in my life but I'm doing better. It's nuts aint it but whatev. Anyway, I hope i have another sunday off, there's a show at the brickhouse i want to go to. And if Kayle's mom has found her a car, because she crashed hers wends, she's coming home this weekend. And if she cant find a ride on fri, she wants me to go pick her up, thats 3 hours there, and 3 hours back and a shitload of gas so i dont know yet.

scratch that, 5 days til i see kayle

so like 12 more days til i see kayle again

So tonight first off was really super boring at work...no one really wanted to buy tv's from me, and then when one person came, 5 others did too. So it was ok because we had like 2 other new guys working and me and about 4 guys that know what they were doing. So they threw me into tube tv's and dvd players and i got some weird questions. One really creepy guy came, he was like an old redneck and had some chick w. him that was like 20s and was mexican or something...so it must be his either mail order bride and sex slave.

Then we get the news that it will be another new guy, me and this guy jack closing. Jack is a mag pro as thier called and know a shitload about Tv's. Well i had a question for him and couldnt find him and then we had a return which we cant do so i paged him over the intercom and i guess someone hit his car, then came into the store. Luckily another employee saw it and called the cops. So jack was out at his car and left us the entire home theater department to ourselves.

but i saw lisa at work and pete which was sweet

so yea that was my night and im going to the durham yardsale tomorrow

I got the job at best buy. Im working in home theater. Also i got my offer letter from my dads work. So now all i have to do is do 2 drug tests. one for each 2 days apart 2 different locations. But ill be getting a lot of money. because ill be wokring 20-25 hours a week at 8.50 so 20 x 8.50 = 170 + 96 (from my dad's company) = 266 a week before taxes. Im so happy i finally get money, real money bc ive been spending a lot lately.

So yea, Kayle leaves for school in less than two weeks along with everyone else. I hate the fact that i decided to stay at home for a year, i should have just applied everywhere when i moved here but i didnt know about tons of colleges. All i really knew was unh as far as big colleges. But today i ordered my books. I never thought this time in my life would come...college. What i've always dreamed of and for the first semester at least im staying at home. then transfering to hopefully umf to be w. kayle. My mom really doesnt want me to go there and all. I hate that all my girlfriend and friends are leaving. I cant wait for the breaks when we all can get together again...damn this summer had to have been the fastest sumemr ever in my life.

In other news, I have at least one other job now. Right now im helping a guy my dad works with add onto his house...manual labor sucks but 10/hr cash...i love it. But today i finalized my job at the company my dad works for. Ill be a marketing intern doing powerpoint and shit. I start sept 5 8/hr x 12 hrs/week = 96 a week before taxes. So not to bad but i want to make more money. So because i want more money, i want another job...and at 3 this afternoon I have an interview at Best Buy. this is seriously like the jobs ive always wanted for now. what i really would like to be doing is owning a record store but thats down the road in life. But i feel like i live at best buy. I love that store so much. My first few paychecks will go to a new system in my car. I need new speakers. I riped out my old stereo in my jeep after i crashed it so im going to see if theres any way i can get that in my new car. but if not, im going to get a new stereo too. and then an amp and like 3 10's maybe. then after my car, im going to get a keyboard, then a new tv because my sensor died for my remote so i cant have one. then i think maybe a laptop if i dont have one by then but i think ill get one from my parents before i go away for college. Then some new home theater stuff for my room. and in between all that ill get cd's dvd's and other electronics. they my as well just pay me in store credit rather than cash because its all going to go to them anyhow.

Wish me luck, i gotta go eat then get dressed.

So Ozzfest was amazing and a half...i cant wait for next year and to go to more shows...anyone goin to the brickhouse sun??? hoodwreckeds last show is then and ive been thinkin about goin...i should be gettin a job soon, i just went out and bought a bunch of dress clothes for it bc i basically have it...

was my grad party. it was pretty sweet, had a great time w. some great kids and if you didnt come....well you should have. Im thinkin about havin another one in Aug. as a goodbye party to all my senior friends who'll be leaving for college and all my college friends going back to college. One thing I've realized from my party is that my friends have changed a lot since i started at dover high. When i started, i had a lot of junior friends and some senior friends but no one really included me on anything and i was at home a lot of weekends doing nothing and now i have not so many junior friends, a completly different group of senior friends and college friends. Its like almost i met all my friends at my old school again here just in differnt bodies. I love it. I love my friends, i dont know where i would be w.o you guys. I've had no friends before, ive sat alone on my weekends and summers and i hated it a lot. but now, i love it. summers going by way to fast and in september everyone best stay in touch and shit...."These are my friends, I have their backs, they are the closest thing to blood that i have"

You know you are in love
when you see the world in her eyes,
and her eyes everywhere in the world.

so yea, prom....so as many of you know, im taking 2 girls, jennie and britney. ive taken britney to like 3 dances already or so and jennies always been in the group with us. so to keep the traditiion going, theyre goin to prom with me. now this is 2 girls, flying from michigan to go to prom with me...true friendship. Now heres the dilema. i saw kayle today all dressed up for her prom (she took her best friend) but she looks absolutly gorgous...i mean amazingly beautiful. SO now i kinda wanna take her, not bc shes so amazingly pretty but bc it would be so fun...but jennie and britney already have thier tickets to fly out here or will so and are really looking forward to going to prom with me. so im going w. them but really really want to take kayle. but o well, jennie, britney, and i have been planing this for a really long time so i cant say no but o well hell...i think that im the most amazing person alive....im taking 2 girls to prom, have a gf, im not taking my gf, aaaannnddddd my gf will stay with me after it